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'i want you to know what really took place with us, even if you never believe it. in fiction if nowhere else, i must have a little meaning, a little coherence, or i will go mad.'
Queen of the Damned, Anne Rice. 


i love that quote. but i use it here to say that, even if no one believes it, or even reads it, i need this for meaning and clarity for myself. 
i feel, sick. a deep-seated sickness that rots through every part of me. i'm not dying faster than i should be expected to, but it feels like i'm being eaten alive by a great nothing. i'm not fading because i'd have to have been solid for that. maybe i'm an echo of the life i was supposed to be living. i can be happy. but it's so few and far between that i'm beginning to doubt it's happiness and not just less sad... not that i'm sure i'm even sad. it's just, well, nothing. blankness. a sincere life apathy. 
i can't enjoy sleep. it used to comfort me. my bed used to be of comfort and now it's the only place i can occupy and it's infuriating. i'm back home for a while before maybe going back to uni. whether or not i will is a matter where the answer has been taken out of my control. being back home has only made me realise, i don't belong here any more. i'm a ghost in my own home. casually floating out for food, then floating away. 
i just... want to enjoy going to sleep. get back to having it as a comfort and then maybe, not having to wake up. 

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some call me tim...
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United Kingdom
Current Residence: bed
Favourite genre of music: goth, rock, clubland x-treme hardcore
MP3 player of choice: Creative ZEN >.<
Favourite cartoon character: early family guy stewie
Personal Quote: me: eilidh had a cat! aimee: eilidh gave birth to a cat?!
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JuliaMadrigal Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2014   General Artist
Thanks for the fav! it means a lot
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LolipopCandii Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave on my 'Jelly' pic~! ^ ^
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PoetryOD Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014
Thanks for the fave on 'To the Stars'

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PoetryOD Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2014
:iconsuperheroglompplz: Thanks for the fave!
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HyeeJi Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!  
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Ridderkvinden Featured By Owner May 25, 2013
Thank you so much for faving my poem "The girl in the pond" :D It is very much appreciated, and I am very happy you like it :D
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KASPA101-Designs Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2012  Student Artist
Thanks for the support!
Also you can check out my video: Summer graffiti 2010 [link]

Thanks!:)
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TheWorldIsLove Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the fave! :D
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Raechi-Cherie Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2011  Professional Interface Designer
Thanks for faving my Tardis Satchel! :)
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xDMelissar Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2011
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Thank you for the fave on Always Mine- Doctor Who
Much appreciated :heart:

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